Thursday, 26th June 2008,
I never thought about writing a post like this in my blog to spoil it's value. But, still I thought sometimes it might be a reminder to me in future, for not to let something like this happen again.
I expect none of you to read it. So, don't you dare read it!
This is about a recent incident happened to me. It's about a Hope. Actually, I realized that I had a hope on that after it ended. You can consider it as anyway you want. But, on my side, it's like living without a purpose.
So, let me get to the story straight away.
When I entered to study in the university (University of Moratuwa), I wanted to do a sport during my stay at the university. My favourite sport was Tennis as you all know. On the second day I saw the Tennis team of the university practicing . So, I was very to keen to join them. Due to competition in academics, I had to sacrifice one year of my sporting career. All in all, Somehow, I was able to start my practices in the second year.
From that day onwards, I sacrificed everything to get to a good level in the game. Carrying the damn heavy racket bag, motivating all the new comers, attending and organizing extra practice hours, cutting lectures, some days I purposely went back home to get a short or shoes and especially getting scolded heavily from my parents for concentrating only on Tennis and many more...
I can honestly say that I was very successful. I was able improve very well. I kept my heart on the racket when I was practicing. I always took advice from the great masters of our team and concentrated very very hard. So, somehow as a beginner, I was good. Well, actually I was able to be in the top (not No.1) out of the beginners list.
Also, I enjoyed the game and the company of my team mates to the maximum.
This year I and my fellow new comers got the chance to play for the trials to get into the official tennis team. I badly wanted to get there. There was 7 to compete and only two were selected.
Just before this mini-tournament was announced, a stupid hamstring injury struck me. And I couldn't move my feet on the court like I used to. It showed signs, that I'm about to get into trouble. And then I did.
During those matches I was only able to beat one opponent. I lost the rest of the matches very badly. I never thought that I can perform as poor that. Hopeless! I hardly had a chance. Thankx to my hamstring. And so was my luck. It always acted against me.
Finally in simple form "I couldn't make it".
More than one year of very hard work and sacrifices.
So, I was upset, in fact a lot upset about what happened. Because I had nothing to do about it. I wouldn't have felt such a bad feeling if I wasn't so bounded to it. So, then only I felt that I have failed yet again because of my own hopes.
Now, today I don't consider this as a bad memory, but as a good learning experience.
Now, I feel a lot free about this. Just concentrating on the usual practice.
Usually, I perform well when nobody expects anything from me.
And I also feel a lot proud and happy about being in the best sporting team in the university.
By the way I also have to mention about the two great cap's Tharaka aiya & Roshan aiya, who motivated me 'not to give up' and keep on fighting. Their guidance just gave me a super-strength to practice harder than ever.
After all, this is just nothing, because more disastrous things happening to people.
Finally, I'll always remember this wonderful incident in future as well, which will give me courage and strength in whatever I do to make things happen for me or you!
After all, 'middle path rule' is always the key to success.
Finally at last, this is kind of another victory for me. Because I have never experienced the feeling of 'defeat in a sport' before. So, it's a bonus.
"Tennis means Mora & Mora only!"
Universal Vishwa